outoftheblu

I don't get on DeviantArt much anymore. Actually this website sort of depresses me and that may be why you don't see me much. I think it's a mixture of the really super shitty artwork and the amazingly unfathomly good artwork that puts me in this "low" mood, like either nothing here pleases me or I feel like I can't compete with some of the people on here. I also haven't had access to the computer in my own home much since last November when my brother moved in downstairs where the computer is. He's on it pretty much 24/7. Actually he should be getting home here in a bit and I'm going to have to go do something else, again. Living in this house also depresses me. I've lived in the same house, in the same room for close to 19 years now (that's my entire life) and I've slowly become less and less inspired by things. I need something new. Going outside and doing things helps a bit, but I always dread coming home because of the negative boring cloud that hangs over it. I can't do art here anymore. I mean, I can.... just not very often and it has to be under the right conditions. Nobody else can be home and I have to have something that I really want to make and that I'm 100% sure about. Both of those things suck because during the week my mom comes home at 2pm and I usually don't even get up until 11am and I'm almost never 100% sure about anything. So I guess with all that said, I'm leaving DeviantArt. I'm deleting this account and everything. I have plans to come back under a different name, but probably not for a while. If you see the name Ssanyuu here or any other art-related site, it's probably me.

So I graduated from high school on Sunday... so I'll be uploading the last of my school work. Hopefully I'll be able to get some independent stuff up this summer and the upcoming year. I need to build a work space. Right now I don't really have one. I might have to build a makeshift studio in the garage to keep me active in the arts. I plan on having another art show possibly sometime this summer/later this year. I'm kind of working on a series, but it's just barely started. I need to get un-lazy and scan some stuff. That's another thing, I need a bigger scanner. O_o I am really not a fan of scanning 2-4 different images of a piece of artwork and then merging them together in Photoshop. I just did one today and it took several hours to get it to look near perfect.

Anyway, that's my well needed update.

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it that night in women's clothing and I saw you carve your initials into my avocado plant. I'm sure you're man enough to understand That we're cousins. I'm returning the pictures from LA to you, but I'll keep your neighbour Martin as a memory. You should also know that I always wanted to break the apartment building.

With ease,
Ellie

---------lol.

Nick, you're probably wondering, "wtf??".

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Yay for Palm Centro!! And at&t. lol

I loooooove it, it's sooo awesome compared to my dumb little alltel track phone.
The messeging system is so different, but I love it. I can actually take pictures with this phone, and upload pictures and stuff to it from my computer. It's awesome The full QWERTY keyboard takes a while to get used to, when you're so accustomed to the typical 3-letter-per-key phones. I'm so slowww. lol

I was going to get a Blackberry Pearl... then we went to Bestbuy and I found a Blackberry Curve for an even better deal..... until we found out that we HAD to pay an extra &30 per month for Blackberry service, which is ridiculous. So I decided on my Palm Centro. I'm happy with it.

I painted my nails today Well, yesterday too. Yesterday I painted my toe nails red, and when they dried I painted my boyfriend's initials on my big toes. lolll

Today I painted my fingernails. Base color is white, and on my thumbs are single red hearts. The tips of the rest of my fingers are red. They way that they're not perfect makes it look like I dipped my fingertips in blood. It's pretty cool. I've debated on taking a picture.. I don't think I will. lol

Oh! Also, I just downloaded some Winamp skins. Hahah, they're pretty cool.

Uhh... pointless journal. Needed something to do. Hahah.